30F Isn’t So Bad !!

It’s the temperature, nothing else. 30 effing Fahrenheit !! -1C !! I’ve been in these temperatures before, but I don’t remember it. *it’s the same as me remembering that I went to Ruby Falls after visiting the aquarium in Tennessee ten years ago, but I don’t remember the location of it* It was cold. And dark. And there was a half moon hanging like a piece of delicious cheese in the clear sky. My breath was mist-ing in front of me. I wasn’t all that greatly wrapped up – just my favorite black coat, blue and black Adidas scarf *yes, I like Adidas *, ear plugs in, my Reebok shoes and Nike socks *yes, I like them too* *OH! And my Puma belt*

It was a beautiful night! I had about 40 oz of delicious hot chocolate owing to the chill. Thick creamy dark hot chocolate. The ultimate winter treat. Ok. It’s not ‘winter’ yet. But Wisconsin begged to differ. It snowed somewhere in the Kettle Moraine State Park in the morning and we missed by a good few hours. Somewhat ironic, since this was a site from where fossils from the ice age were recovered. We drove around bits of the forest, admiring the brilliant colors of the fall. Still a lot of green fading into yellow, darkening into sunlight orange and then the deep deep red. The trees, the roads, the paths…Maple leaves everywhere in their pretty patterns. Delectable sights. I was one with nature again! *I feared stepping on a snake…I would’ve bolted off a cliff or into the lake if I had* There were red barns and I saw neat cows and sheep and goats !!! We went on a hay ride and picked orange pumpkins – that I promised I would carve or paint over the weekend. We stopped at all the places I shouldn’t have eaten – Subway, McDonald’s and Papa John’s. *So much for losing weight, huh?* Surprisingly, when I stepped on the scales this morning, I was down by another pound !! *does cartwheels in head* !!

The Point Being…

Apart from my congested chest, sore throat, blocked nose, drops popping, throat spraying times of the week, I’ve actually gotten quite a few things done. Two assignments submitted three hours before their respective deadlines made me feel a sense of accomplishment. Sitting for a quiz I studied ten minutes for left me feeling satisfied. Rushing to the downtown campus to get my documents ready to apply for my social security number gave me a feeling of purpose. I felt good. I had bad dreams – not nightmares, just bad dreams – and found myself knocking on wood a little more than often in the past week. I’ve been sleeping well, and seem to have lost a few pounds as well – I still don’t fit into some of my favorite pants, that I used to fit into with ease barely two months back – and have decided to swim at least four times a week starting next week. And then I realize that I start working from the 19th, so I cannot spare enough time…working towards finding an alternative…

Grandpa’s extra proud that I got a job. It’s not much, really. It’s just an on-campus job, and one knows that it doesn’t pay much, but it’s there. It’s a big thing in my family because we grew up with an independence of spirit. We always had people to do things for us, but the greater things in life were all us. Decision making, path choosing…we did it on our own. Isn’t that enough?

I don’t believe in asking for opinions. I don’t like to take or give advice. The only persons that I will ask would be the ones that I trust who know me and know what’s best for me. But even then I procrastinate while I weigh my own personal choices. I never jump into anything blindly. I want to know what’s in it for me. I’ve said that I don’t always think of the consequences of my actions, and I stand by that. It’s complicated to explain what I think the consequences would be – because whenever I make a decision I do think of what the outcome will be, I just don’t think of the damage control that could be called for. There’s always someone to pick me up from that. I know. I’m being independent. But I’ve got my back covered.

Did that make sense? No. I think not. I can’t make sense of it either. I understand what I was trying ot convey but have left out quite a lot of background information.

I guess there wasn’t really a great point I was trying to make in this post. Just wrote randomly. Touching something.

The (cold) Empire Strikes – Again

My n’s and r’s sound like d’s, I can’t smell the normally overwhelming male perfume in my hallway, I can’t taste the cheddar jalapeño flavor of the Cheetos, and I can’t sing even a little bit of ‘Run to the hills‘ currently playing on my media player. I have been struck by the common cold, set on my sore throat induced by the dryness in my room because now the heating has been turned on in the residence halls. It’s all connected. I promise you that. Always connected. Hopefully this bout falls into my yearly routine… *knocks wood*

I still haven’t finished any of the books I’ve borrowed from the library this time – includes a kind of sultry sequel to Pride and Prejudice – owing to the two assignments, three mid-terms and a few quizzes scheduled in the next few weeks. And also the two jobs that I interviewed for…I got both…accepted both…then refused one…20 hours dedicated to that from next week… WOW! I’m getting back to the busy person I like to be. I like lazy too. But sometimes busy is good. I won’t feel so guilty about spending now that I will be earning !! It’s not much but it’s good enough for me. For now. I’m glad.

Fall break is this weekend, and I must study hard. I’ve begun to understand the deeper meaning of things, makes me a better person. Learning a lot from those around me – different cultures, some with sane outlooks, others just have issues, and yet others don’t know the extent of their personal beliefs. It’s maddening sometimes, but I have the advantage of having a very silent ‘me’ time.

The heavy nose calls for attention, and my black sheeted, black comforted bed beckons . Starting to go to the 40’s in temperature now…can’t wait for it to snow!! Delightful !!