Of Change

Two weeks of sitting in an office cubicle for eight and a half hours a day, taking two half an hour coffee breaks and an hour off for lunch, and sifting through pages of project documents, trying not to fall asleep on the keyboard as the cool flow of air from the air conditioning lulls the eye lids to droop, trying to leave as early as possible so as not to miss the bus, socializing with people who are jovial and yet so serious looking…Yeah. That’s been my life for the past ten days and yet I craved for the weekend to arrive. Why? Because as much fun it is having such a change in my life, it’s still change. And at the beginning it’s never pretty.

First off, not knowing anyone that I would be working with. That changes with time. Next, adjusting to the atmosphere of sitting in a cubicle and staring at a computer monitor. Remembering passwords and log in names and other ID’s. The kind of weird silence that fills the air at times when around eighty people are sitting in their respective places and working. Sometimes it gets so quite you’d be surprised that there actually are those many people. The occasional ring of the telephone, ping of a message, scraping of chairs as their owners move around on it, the odd chatter…It’s really really different. More tiring because of the amount of time I spend in traveling (on a bus, half way, which in itself is a whole new experience for me!!) and definitely gives me more time when I’m back home because of the absence of the obligation to study for exams and etc.

There were these moments in the first week of work when I actually wholly freaked. Completely. I almost cried one day while sitting in the bus (that I was listening to My Confession by Josh Groban, the only song to date that has made me cry, is beside the point). There was a sort of numb realization that I was lost. At work. I was lost. Literally. Stepping out of the free-ish confines of the life I’ve had so far into the world of a working adult hit me a little hard. Unconsciously but hard. It was possibly the news that my parents were going to be visiting for ten days that ended up putting the smile back on my face and wash any remnant of fear that had consumed me. That they’d be here for my birthday was stupendously joyous to know!! Honestly!! I haven’t seen them for a year now and it’s a horrible feeling to have…Missing someone and not telling them because you know how bad they’ll feel about it. And where parents are involved it goes deeper. Anyway, they’re coming on Tuesday and that’s all that matters

Working is fun, overall, but it cuts down the time spent at home and time normally spent with friends a lot. Plans that have been made for the past two weekends have only materialized by word of mouth and not yet put into motion. Something always comes up. It’s not like no one wants it to happen or anything, more of the timing of other things. Kinda sucks because just when everything seems to fall into place something else comes up and puts on hold, even if temporarily, any other thing. But then again, there’s only certain things that can be done about it, not everything can be controlled by us…and it’s not destiny (don’t believe in it anymore…don’t think I ever have).

Lots of things are going to change around here now, with my cousin leaving in two weeks for her studies at UGA, my parents (hopefully) moving back and thus me moving out of my grandparents place…Damn!! Quite a ride we’ve all been through in the past few weeks. The busy schedule and the unexpected events that have taken stride of everything, leaving everyone at home gloriously happy or depressingly unhappy. Well, I guess that’s life, we just have to live with it! Cheers!!

P.S. Been rather obsessed with ‘The Animal In Me’ by Motley Crue…it’s really really nice And of course ever since I watched ‘The Dark Knight’ last night..it’s possibly the first super-hero movie I’ve actually liked this much!! We’re planning to watch it again once my parents get here and have a fun weekend with the entire family. Something really great to look forward to for the next few days so toodles!! And by the time I write again I’ll definitely be 22 years of age…a year older than what I am now LOL!!