07.09.09

Don’t Say A Word!

Posted in Espresso - Black Cream and Sugar, metal music, music tagged , , , , , , , , , , at 11:35 am by Sruts

30 effing games, spectacularly played 5 sets, all in the course of crowning one of the greats of the games of tennis. I was sure Federer would win it in the end, but Andy Roddick played so well that at times I was actually wishing he would win. He deserved to win but that final forehand of his just sealed Federer’s magnificence on the court. It was a proud moment, and my heart went out to Roddick. He’s worked so well this year, and that final was a perfect chance for him, but he missed it by a whisker. Brilliant players, both. Federer just had lady luck on his side. 16-14. Marvellous set, that last one. An hour and a half of play for that. And it might’ve gone on had it not been for Roddick’s mishit.

Woah! Anyway, Christiano ‘smirking/diving’ Ronaldo has left the Premier League – Real’s gain becomes ManUtd’s loss, but it’s better not to have a player who wants to play for another club – but for 80 million pounds… ok, I’m just glad he’s not around the Premier League anymore. He’s my cousin’s problem now – she hates him and he’s in Real Madrid now – and she loves Kaka. *she also like Lleyton Hewitt and Andy Roddick – but fully supported Roddick through the Wimbledon*

Have this ‘Things To Take To College’ list – my own – and there are these odd items that keep appearing on it, important stuff but odd. I can take three suitcases worth of things – excluding the two bags I can carry as hand baggage – and it’s rather distressing to know that I will have to leave behind a lot of things I’ve never so far been without. It’s hard. Clothes are okay, but I’ve a good collection of coats and shoes and I would hate to leave behind any of those. Well, come to think of it, clothes…yeah there are those particular pairs of jeans and shirts that I love…oh my. With the weight of my check-in baggage being 23×3 (=69) kilograms there isn’t much I can do. But that’s enough, I guess. I will be travelling to Atlanta on any and every 3+ day weekend I get…I’ll be fine I suppose.

One of my friends treated me to stories of blood and gore and somehow that stuck with me and I found myself obsessing over Don’t Say A Word by Sonata Arctica. Awesome song, amazing vocals, brilliant solos, and creepy lyrics – that, by my interpretation of the song, don’t know about you. Here be the lyrics as far as I could make out with a little help from a lyric birdie as well. If your taste in music be the same or close to mine *basically a lot of noise…metal – any sub genre of*, then you’ll like this one, really. Play it nice and loud.

 I am your poison candy gram, the love that’s meant to fade away

Vade retro, alter ego Move aside I’m choking on this life

I think I tolerate your hate as long as you’re afraid

All I wanted was to be with you and suffer everyday

Under the moon I hold a wake for a promise torn

Mortally wounded, feelings sheltered me

Once again my shadow will enter your life

Time to walk with me the last mile

I read a book about a man, a love, a woman, how they died

How I was waved aside, listen how the headless doves cry

I truly see a madman in the mirror when I’m weak

I spent a year in love before I realized it’s me

Open your blue eyes tell me that you love me, whore

Make me believe it, oh I know you’re lying

Broke the vow I thought you made, my angel, why?

Could I let you wait out the night?

 

Mother always said, “My son, do the noble thing.

You have to finish what you started, no matter what,

Now sit, watch and learn.

It is not how long you live, but what your morals say.

Cannot keep your part of the deal, so don’t say a word,

Don’t say a word.”

 

It won’t be long now love, like mist I slowly fill the room

I place a black candle on your chest, the path of night is manifest

I never wanted us to end up in this catatonic phase

It wasn’t me who ran away, you made me stray

Open your blue eyes tell me that you love me, whore

Make me believe it, oh I know you lied

Broke the vow I thought you made, my angel, why?

Settling the score we pass the twilight

 

Mother always said, “My son, do the noble thing.

You have to finish what you started, no matter what,

Now sit, watch and learn.

It is not how long you live, but what your morals say.

Cannot keep your part of the deal, so don’t say a word,

Don’t say a word.”

 

Strawberry blonde your stranglehold on my heart is bound to end

I suppose life, sometimes, it doesn’t go the way it was meant

Though you never where a believer, I assure you I won’t die before you

You read the book now, the part ‘ashes to ashes, dust to dust’

 

Short is the flight of this little starling, love sounds familiar, but the emotion escapes me

I will carpe the diem while it’s still here, and see how the fear of death becomes her.

 

We had it all so sweet, made for me, you, indeed

Big secret, small the lie, don’t cry for me oh argentite

No word you say tonight can make this be alright

I’ll help you follow through, remember this – pacta sunt servanda

 

The wounds are too deep

I need to keep the scars to prove there was a time

When I loved something more than life

Unlike the last time here I now have the means and a will sincere

Your knight is no where near

Unfortunately for you this makes me your God

 

Closing your blue eyes don’t ever say you love me, whore

You never meant a word, I know you lied

When there is life, there is despair, indulge me now

And stay alive this night, I promise you the end before the first light arrives

 

Mother always said, “My son, do the noble thing.

You have to finish what you started, no matter what,

Now sit, watch and learn.

It is not how long you live, but what your morals say.

Cannot keep your part of the deal, so don’t say a word,

Don’t say-”

Mother always said, “My son, do the noble thing.

You have to finish what you started, no matter what,

Now sit, watch and learn.

It is not how long you live, but what your morals say.

Cannot keep your part of the deal, so don’t say a word,

Don’t say a word!”

 

06.29.09

Chicago Calling

Posted in Espresso - Black Cream and Sugar tagged , , , at 1:39 pm by Sruts

My ticket has been booked for the 16th of August. Yet to receive it but it’s been done. Again a deadline to finish up things here. Home. Wrote out a nice short letter of resignation and mailed it to my manager for further processing. I hope to God it goes off without a hitch, cause it’s a very short period of notice that I’m giving them. Of course I could’ve mentioned it to someone before, that I was thinking of quitting, but I was scared of losing the one thing that gave me a bit of professional security. I couldn’t risk having doubt placed upon me.

We’ve planned out most of the things. But the whole ‘what to take’ is becoming a pain. I need clothes, mainly, but I can’t carry my entire wardrobe to another country. It would be stupid to go there and buy an entire wardrobe too cause I’ve got a pretty cool collection of clothes – formal, informal, dresses, shoes… I’ve to leave some of the less important ones behind and have someone bring it when they come to Chicago.

I’ve also a list of the places I need to visit at Chicago. The Sears Towers for one, and the Navy Pier. The Shedd Aquarium would be of my liking, I’m sure, as would some of the several jazz clubs that the Windy City is famous for. The John Hancock Center, the Adler Planetarium and the Lincoln Park Zoo.  There are several other places that I would love to visit, and I’m open to recommendations, cause I’m not that familiar with Chicago. Georgia, Florida and Tennessee are ok, but Illinois…I just know that it’s near the Great Lakes, closer to Canada than it is to Atlanta, and the city of Chicago has many lakes that would be lovely to take a stroll around. My university is close to downtown Chicago, so I guess that helps. OH! And the libraries. Definitely the libraries. Could never forgive myself if I went to a new city and didn’t visit a library. And considering how I will be spending the better half of the next two years in the city, I definitely must have a library that I can drool in.

And it’s also the place where The Dark Knight was shot!! – downtown Chicago. :)

Leaving to my temporary home tonight, to finalize my resignation, complete my assigned work and bid farewell to a company that’s given me the professional roots I’m so thankful for. I’ve a great set of friends at Bosch, and I’m sure as hell going to miss them. But the farewells come later. I still have a few weeks for that. Hoping to be back home at least for my birthday before I leave for good. My last birthday here for the next few years. GAAAH!!

Must get dressed if I’m to catch the train. Tschuss dann!

06.25.09

As the Crow Flies…

Posted in Eagle's Flight tagged , , , , , , at 9:43 am by Sruts

After all the apprehensions, and strangling delays, and the nice, neat un-strayed plan I made it. I GOT MY VISA!! *screams, jumps, shouts* The US consulate deemed me fit enough to allow me entry into the United States on a student visa. So I’m gonna be off to Chicago in less than a month or so – exactly a month to my birthday, and exactly two months to the first day of classes. I’m guessing it’s going to be a three year visa, given that the duration of my course is 30 months. Due to receive my passport in a day or two. I exulted, I was happy. I still am. But now the gnawing truth dawns…I’m on my own.

My appointment was for 0745 hours last morning, and we’d driven in the previous night. This horrible cold that I’ve caught gave me no respite. It only added to the nervousness. Since I went through the whole phase of dashing out mails to friends and my counsellor and freakishly searching the internet for solutions I thought it might be helpful if I just put across what I did do.

Disclaimer – I am no expert on this matter, but I was advised by experts on this course. The documents required and asked for may vary for each person – especially the financial documents – so do not wholly bank on what I say below. It’s just a recitation of the experience I went through at the consulate and thus cannot and should not be held responsible in case it isn’t what happened for you.

While entering the consulate I was required to show my visa interview appointment letter and passport.

Once in, I held the following documents – all originals – ready to be handed over the pre-screening counter – to a very amiable officer.

-          Visa appointment letter

-          Passport (old ones + latest)

-          Visa fee receipt (blue slip is for the consulate, so tuck the pink slip away)

-          D-156 (with the 2*2 photo, and signed), D-157 and D-158(signed)

-          I-20

-          SEVIS fee receipt

-          GRE score report

-          TOEFL score report

-          Degree certificate

These were handed back to me in a easy to carry blue folder and directed to trudge with a total of three files in my hand to the next building. I was sent back to the main building, however, and asked to wait my turn. It came oh so quickly.

I was filled with such dreaded anticipation that I kind of forgot not to let the nervousness show on my face. I guess it was so obvious because the officer smiled at me as he wished me a very good morning. I returned the greeting and pushed across the blue folder I had been given at the pre-screening, and hoped to God that I wouldn’t be walking away with my passport!

The officer browsed through the files, fingerprint verified me again, and very politely asked me a few questions just for the heck of it, all the while tapping on his keyboard, looking at his computer screen and at the documents I’d given him.

Officer W (offering me a smile – which he didn’t to the five others before me): – Good morning.

Mich (a little nervous but smiling back): – Good morning.

(Even before he asked I pushed the blue folder toward him, and he nodded. Mr. W laid out all the afore mentioned documents in front of him, fingerprinted me, looked at my face and the picture in the form, nodded, smiled. I did the whole knowing who I’m talking to study and looked at his ID card and figured out his name. It’s habit that I have.)

Officer W: – Alright, so who will be paying for your school?

Mich: – My grandfather.

Officer W (in a tone of slight surprise): – Oh! And how old is he?

Mich (a little flustered at the turn of the interview): – Eh, around 70.

Officer W (nodding) : – What does he do?

Mich: – He’s the proprietor of a newspaper.

Officer W: – Sorry? What does he do?

Mich: – Proprei – Journalist. He’s a journalist.

Officer W: – Which newspaper does he write for?

Mich: – His own. He owns it. Proprietor.

Officer W: – Oh, right. What is the circulation of the paper?

Mich: – The whole state of —-

Officer W: – What is the circulation in terms of number of people?

Mich: – Ah…thinking of a figure that would be correct and satisfactory…roughly a couple…a few million in the least.

Officer: – Ok. Your passport will be sent to you by courier in a day or two. Good luck to you. And have a nice time in the United States.

Mich (nodding vigorously with a big smile): – Thank you so much. I will.

And I walked out with such relief and absolute pleasure that there can be nothing comparable to the joy I felt when I called up my mum and screamed, “I got it!” And then calls were made to my grandfather and uncle and aunt. And in all co-incidential sense my friends from work called me at that precise moment! It’s a day I will relish for the rest of my life. A confirmation of my dreams, would be what I look it this as. It’s an accomplishment for me, personally, because I set this goal and I’m closer to getting it. I’m also the first girl in my family, immediate and immediate-extended, to do her master’s degree, and the only one to be doing it in the United States of America.

Now, I’m plotting and planning and thinking of ways to break the news to my manager. Five weeks notice is not what is expected by them but I can request for a waiver, and hopefully it is accepted. My tickets have been blocked, and I only have to confirm the date of my leaving Bosch. It will be a sad farewell, because I’ve grown so used to the place. I like it. I enjoy my work. And I’ve come a long way in the past eleven months that I’ve been working with Bosch. As a person, definitely, and that’s just something you never stop growing in. But technically, yeah…I know a lot much more. I know what it really means to be ‘in the industry’. And now I’ve to leave. I’m going to be studying. Specializing in a subject of my interest. I planned it for a whole year. With all the bumps and the thumps, I had to hold on, and I did. It paid off. It’ll pay off more when I actually get to Chicago and begin the whole academic excellence pursuit part of this whole plan.

I’m still in the clouds. My shopping list is out, pre-departure checklist been mailed, important people informed, farewell parties being organized by my friends – supposed to be a surprise when I come back in two weeks for a small visit before I leave for good, but I found out when a e-mail that was meant for one of the organizers landed in my mailbox – my aunt, uncle and cousins planning the necessities and visits to Atlanta… yeah, it’s all underway. And still more.

I just got my inoculation for MMR, with a Meningitis shot scheduled for Saturday when I go back for the TB skin test results. So both my forearms hurt a little bit.

:) I’m happy. A bear hug to all those who let me know that ‘we knew you had it in you!‘ and a ha to those who didn’t want me to/told me I would never go – but I thank you, nevertheless, cause that spurred me on more – but don’t take credit for it, you don’t deserve it. Anyway. Love to all. I’ve things to do. I’m in a blurry moment now. Will definitely be filling in details as more things fall into line.

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